A day of meeting up and relaxing.

To start this post, I'll just need to give some background...
Last night, when I reached home, my father told me that I had to stay at home to take care of my grandmother and aunt..

The reason? They were going to leave for a meeting overseas for the weekends, and thus, needed me to stay at home to take care of my grandmother..
I was a bit shocked, but then accepted it quickly, as i knew it was their job and stuff..

In the meantime, I actually had already made plans to meet up with another friend of mine, who's currently in the Army... [Long story]

Anyways, after hearing the news, I called him, and he told me that he would be able to change plans and thus... He decided to come to my house to meet me...

So, this starts the main gist of this post....

This morning, I woke up at about 9 plus to get ready and stuff, and at around 10, I got a msg from him saying that he would be late. So, I just went and like got some stuff to eat...

At 10:45 plus, he reached my house, and I welcomed him in...

He came in, and we first had like a short chat in my living room, before we got to my very messy room... We sat on my bed, and I told him about my concerns about enlisting and stuff, my worries and all that, and he in turn, told me about some of his experiences...

Also, of course, he brought his MTG decks out, and we had some time to play test his black control deck, and blue Whizzie decks.. [[LOL Whizzie deck LOL]]

So, then, after a while, he also took some time to show me how to play Generals properly... as I had it like installed in my laptop... It was exremely fun to see how it actually worked, and I learnt and interesting thing known as kiting... LOL

After quite a while of talking and playing, I was feeling a bit hungry, and lucky for me, my Aunt arrived at about 1pm plus... So I was able to leave home with my friend to eat...

So, we just left my home, and headed towards this Coronation Plaza to withdraw some cash...Following that, we went over to the nearby Thai noodles restaurant, and I tried a dish called Pad Thai... It's quite nice...With it's sauce, and the peanut powder at the side.. I reccommend it...

After the meal, we went over to another shopping centre in the area, and we went over to a card shop there to get some cards... MTG, as usual.

We both got a M.Tide, and S.Moor booster each [[Tho I freaking felt that maybe I should have not gotten like both...lol... nvm about that...]]

So, after another while of dilly-dallying, I decided that perhaps I should like start making my way to work, as it was already about 3 plus. [I start work at 530pm.]

After a bit of discussion, I just sort of decided to take 961 with him, so we could like have more time to talk about stuff...

I would love to try and elaborate about what we talked about.. But it seems like I'm a bit tight for time... So I guess I would tell the next part some other time then.. Maybe tomorrow...

[[PS: I'm again at the cybercafe, and due to the fact that I need to go back to take care of Grandma, I need to leave now... And today would probably be about 22 or 21 days before I have to get Enlisted...Sigh.. I really need to start going back to the gym again...]]

Okies... Hope that all of you would be able to have a good night...
And well, I guess I do feel better now today, after having had the chance to talk to my friend, and to learn quite a bit about how it is like in NS....

Hopefully I would be able to cope as well as my friend said I would... ah well... Good night...

Atreticus aka Alvin signing out.

[[end at 23:18 GMT +0800]]

A long missing post.... Should have posted...LOL

It's been a whole week since I last posted anything,
So today I've got a lot to update about....

Monday---Went over to my aunt's house for the Vesak Day Holidays and stuff...
Told them about lots of things, they told me quite a bit about their neighbour's grandson, and some of his experiences.. For he was already in NS...

Tuesday --Nothing much happened... At least nothing significant

Wed-- Got to finish work early, so I went over to Esplanade to borrow some books, then went over to the nearby shopping centre and got my gym stuff ready...

Yesterday.... Morning went over to my friend's home area of Boon Lay to swim with him at the swimming pool, dropped my pool locker key in the pool without me knowing, spent like half an hour searching for it... Then took a bus to the MRT station, and took a train towards my work place, but then... on the long journey, slowly drifted off to dreamland and overslept my stop all the way to tanah merah...
Had to like backtrack all the way back to City Hall and ended up being freaking late.. I won't say how long...

Today-- Overslept due to some unforseen circumstances, and was like late-- again... I got so screwed up by my managers.. They scolded me like mad... Then they warned me that if I was late again, they would just terminate my contract like right there and then....
----Dots... I hate my own freaking time management skills and stuff...

Look at me.. I mean I'm like one week away from leaving my job, that I should at least give my superiors a good impression of me!! What the heck am I doing???

I really need to do something about myself... I cannot just allow this kind of thing to go on...

Just a small note--- I'm about 22 days from the day I enlist... I need to get my act together...

PS: If anyone wishes to give me any advice, please give them to me asap... I really hope to have some feedback from all of you...

For the inquisitive-- Where am I now?
I'm at a cybercafe right beside a bus stop at City Hall mrt.... So... yea...
It's going to close soon, so I'm just trying to hurry up with my post...

Just one more thing--- I hope that everything will turn out ok.. I'm really like losing hope day by day... I almost feel like every day that passes is making me feel that much less confident with myself...

Sigh... I pray that everything will be ok...

God Bless us all...

Alvin aka Atreticus, signing out...

Aunt's House... Lotsa stuff

Ok... Today is the 19th, and well, it's been quite a while since I last went over to her house...

And right now, I'm supposed to be freaking keeping my stuff..

Will try to post more in the future...

[[This post was last writted on the 19th May...]]

A short post...

I'm right now like outside, at another starbucks just using wireless...

The reason why I'm here is just that I've just met some friends of friends... Long story on that...

Anyways, I'm just like hoping to enjoy myself as much as possible...

I've just finished watching a movie --- "Speed Racer"...

This has got to be like one of the last few times that I can actually have the time to stay and do stuff...

Ok.. I have a feeling that I'm going to miss a bus soon....

I don't know when the last bus is... Ooops....

Day 3: After the news....

Last night, as I got home, I told my father about the news that I had found out from the NS websie, he just tolld me that there was nothing to be afraid about...

I was like thinking-- "Ok.. right..."Then I just went up into my room to do my usual stuff...

Fast forward to this afternoon, as I got to work...
As I got there, it still seems as though I'm still in like denial or something...

Right now, it still seems like a shock. Sincerely...

Speaking of yesterday... I went to work, as per normal, and informed my boss about me going into NS.

I told him everything about it, and that day, I had also gotten myself ready to go to gym.. As I had decided to go to gym, and i was working in the morning shift, thus enabling me to have the time to go too...

After knowing about it, he told me that I could resign 2 weeks before my enlistment, which was 31st May, so that I should be able to have ample time to prepare and all that...

As of right now, I still can't seem to think much about anything else...

After work, I went to the nearby bookstore to look at some information about preparing to go in, and ended up not being able to find out much about it... Thus, at around 7 to 8 o'clock, I went over to the gym, and did about an hour's running, before heading home...

Right now, I'm typing as fast as I can, as the cybercafe I'm in is about to close... I'd probably have to pay about 3$ but I don't really care if I can just have the chance to have some contact with the outside world...

As of now, I'm just hoping to be able to treasure whatever civilian time I have left, and to do whatever I can do to preserve it in writing or something...

I have so much to say, but I guess I have to leave it to some other time...

God Bless, and good night...
Atreticus aka Alvin.

I'm going in....--.--

Ok. I'm still in shock. I know I shouldn't be in shock, but I am.

The long and short of this, is that I'm going to be in Army in a months time.

The date? 14th June this year.

How did I find out? I've just gone to the NS site to check out the information regarding my enlistment....

Hrm.. Now about the shock part. Why am I in shock?
Many people would probably have presumed that I had recieved the letter a long time ago.

The answer is, No. I didn't recieve any freaking letter for the past 2 months. I had no idea that I was going to go in at June. If I didn't recieve the letter, I'd probably have died or something as the day approached without me realising.

What am I to say now?
Frankly speaking, the emotions I'm feeling now are nothing like those that I've felt when I've just recieved the news about me being removed from SP.

This time, it's much worse than that. Much much worse.
Imagine dropping down a pit with a 50kg stone tied to both your hands and legs. Then imagine that the pit is filled with quicksand.

Yep.

That's how I feel now. Just beind helpless as you get sucked into some vortex of sinking fear in which you know that you cannot escape from because nothing you do will change it.

Well, there's only one thing that I can think of doing right now. Although that would require me to use up every inch of time I have left to doing, it seems to be the only course of action I can take as of this moment...

The only thing I can do right now, is to just--------
Freaking train myself up. Go to whatever gym or anything that you can find, and just go there for every remaining day of this month to train.

Thats all that I can think of about posting.

I have no idea what else I can do right now. I feel so suffocated an knocked back by this news that I don't even know how else I can tell my parents about it.
Or anyone.

For some of you who still have no idea what I'm talking about despite reading all the way down to this line...

Let's just put it simply..

I will be enlisted into the military on 14th of June this Year, and I have just discovered it today, whilst checking my inbox about news and other information. I just had the sense of mind to actually go to the Enlistments website today..

I just have one question in my mind right now.

Why have I not recieved the letter informing me about the enlistment? Why did I have to not find the letter at all? Where did the letter go? Did someone take the letter from the letterbox and conviniently not informed me about it? Did someone just take it away from me without letting me know at all?

Ok. That's like 5 questions, but I do not care. That's not the point.

The long and short of it is this---
I have only one course of action that I can do, and I HAVE TO follow through it. Whatever it takes.

My whole being is just being suffocated by this news. I can no longer think properly.
Just reeling from the shock is taking my whole concentration.

Alvin finishing off.
Time-- 19:48 , 13th May 2008, Tuesday. [GMT +0800]