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There is so much that has happened over all this time.

There is just so much that has happened.

Today is 3rd October. [yea duh.]
Woke up at home, [I'm finally back home] and went down to eat breakfast and stuff.
At around 12, I went out with mother and Grandmother to the nearby Shopping center, first to do some banking stuff, then went to the foodcourt to eat lunch.

After lunch, We went down to the basement supermarket to do some grocery shopping.
While mum and gran were getting the groceries, I went up to the foodcourt to buy some lunch for dad, and my mentally disabled aunt. [Mum's younger sister.]

When I came down, they were done grocery shopping, so I helped them push the trolley while they went to the taxi stop. Then we took a taxi home.

Yea, that's just what happened in the beginning of the day and all that stuff.
But for now, I'd just like to leave it there.

There is so much in my mind. So much that has happened ever since that day.
Since the last time I posted on the blog.
Sometimes I'm just thinking to myself what I've been doing all this time.
I mean, I know what I'm doing, but it's just, I seem to just pass the day,"snap", just like that.

Last week, I was ill, at my aunt's home.
It all started from when I first had a cold.
It was when I had first started to sniff, and sneeze, and stuff like that.
Basically, the flu.
I had the flu for two days, from tuesday to wednesday.
Monday, of that week was still ok, nothing much had happened. School had just started for most of my friends, but as for me, that was another story.

See what I mean, when I say that there is a lot of stuff in my mind?
Because of that, I'm like constantly just going from one thing to another, and as long as I'm alive, this kind of thing will continue on and on.
Just like what the French Mathematician had said, "I think, therefore, I am."
As long as I live, I will think, and there will always be something that will gain my attention, and I will be attracted to it, and fail.
Why will I fail? Because I have failed before.

Enough of that kind of thinking. Pessimism won't get me anywhere. Really.
When you don't know what to do, get help! Don't just sit there whole day, with your stupid sudoku things beside your bad, and your whole life messed up around you!
What is wrong with you? What is wrong with me?

Here's what is wrong: I've just been a selfish, self centred, compulsive person. I'm also a coward, and a hypocrite.
That is why I am here right now, writing all this down.

I shall stop here, and now dedicate another post for what had happened on 27th Sept.