Cosplay? or Cos-play?

That has been something that has been going through my mind for the past 3 days.

Well... A lot of things have been happening around me. I don't really know what to expect anymore these days.

Firstly, I was accepted into an ANBU CP team. The next thing I know, I'm out of it. Sigh.
Was it meant to be that? I'll never know.

Sometimes, it just boils down to how you present yourself to people. Present yourself too much, and people think you're aloof. Present too many questions, people think that you're annoying and need spoonfeeding... Well, guess I still lack social skills..

Anyways, I have a hectic schedule up ahead.

19/07::

8am-12nn: Normal School.
1-2pm: Maths Test
3.15pm-??: CLS Day, [some sort of orientation-like thing]

20/07::

8am-3pm: Normal School.

21/07::

10am-12nn: Normal School.
4.15pm-5.15pm: Chemistry Test
7pm-10pm: Party!!

22/07::

7am-6pm: Community Involvment Programme [CIP... T_T]

23/07::

1pm-??: Photoshoot!! Fun!!

What am I to say for the next few days?
Will I go berserk or crazy, or mad?

Why would I be mad? Hrm...

Well, for one, I would be like thinking to myself: Why can't I just be more presentable?? Why must I just like go around offending those around me??

So they do feel annoyed, because they don't want someone who might 'hamper their progress with their inability to be independent.'

BAH... As If I'm NOT independent lor... I can THINK FOR MYSELF!! I DON'T NEED YOU ALL TO THINK FOR ME, OK??

If you don't want someone who is inquisitve, FINE!!

Just because I clarify things out does not mean I always need you all to help me. I just wanted all of us to DISCUSS as a group... Not just for me to ask questions. I was hoping to learn...

Aren't we all still learning from our mistakes?? That's what I'm doing!!

You were very harsh in your attitude lor.. Why can't you have been more understanding of how others felt? Instead of being so high up and like what, "flexing [your] authority as leader"??

You should learn from this as a fact that you think too much about just YOURSELF...

The team's opinion? No. I don't think that's the team's opinion at all. I was just being inquisitive. THAT'S ALL. Either accept it, or I have nothing to say.

Sigh. Some things, never change.
"The only thing that never ceases to change, is Change itself."

2 Days....

I've decided to call this post as such, is due to what has happened....

For the past 2 days, I have played truant and did not attecnd 2 whole days of classes...

Now is my confession of what had happened and why i did not attend the lessons...

Day 1- [10/07] At around 12 midnight, i went down to the living room from my bed room to watch some TV in aniticpation of the Finals of the World Cup... In between, during advertisements, I came up to my room to do some forum chatting....

2am: I came back to the living room to watch the match...

2.45am: First half of the match /France 1:Italy 1 \I took a break to get a drink of water...

3am: The second half of the match began.. I was lying on my sofa watching, and as I slowly watched, I drifted off to sleep

6am: I just woke up to find that I had slept on the SOFA!! What did I do? I took all my stuff up into my room and went onto my bed to continue sleeping....

Pause here: Why did I do so? At that time, I guess I was overwhelmed by fatigue, and also, I thought that I needed more sleep, thus deciding to sleep more. Thus, under my sleep craving situation, I went on sleeping... [ignoring the fact that my grandparents tried to wake me..]

11am: Finally woke up from bed... Quickly got up and got all my stuff ready... Bathed for a quick while, then rushed [literally] out of home to catch a bus to school...

1pm: Caught the bus at 12.30nn,reached school at 1pm. Upon reaching the classroom, I found the electronic door locked. Under a fit of frustration, I just left the classroom block and went towards the library....

Then at the library, I went to borrow 2 DVDs to watch... [Both about The Matrix], and took it down to watch... watched all the way from 2pm or so, all the way to around 6pm...

While I was watching those DVDs, members of the 'buddy' class were streaming down to the Basement floor, and they saw me watching the show....They accompanied me for a while, until it was time for their lessons... [or so i think]

Pause again: Why did I not join them? Well, I have been thinking, but I think the main reason was because I was too engrossed in the show and didn't want to stop halfway...
Qn: Why can't I just leave the show? What was so important about the show?

Ans:I was too selfish.. I only thought of myself, that I wanted to watch the show...
What about the lesson? I didn't care about it...

On hindsight, I feel that I should have cared... But I didn't... That was really just too foolish of me...

Day 2- [11/07]

8am: Grandfather woke me up... I woke up and [tried to] get ready...

9am: While Grandfather was downstairs preparing breakfast, I went back onto the bed to rest for a while...

10.30am-11.15am: I've gotten up at around 10.30am, then went to bathe and reached the bus stop at 11.15am...

By the time I reached school, It was around11.45am already...I went to the food court to find my group members... Then went to the Basement of the Library to find them...

I could not find them, so I took some comic books and started to read them while waiting for the time to pass...

However, when it was around 1pm plus, I was still only halfway thru one of the books only. Thus, I decided to continue on reading....

Pause here: Why did I not go straight to lessons? Well, for one, I thought that I would not be able to make it, and I thought that I would be able to finish it fairly quickly...

From these 2 incidents, I have came to a conclusion... Never assume things would turn out the way you want them to... They never will.

I have learnt it the hard way...

I only decided to borrow the book when it was almost going to 2pm... Then after borrowing out the books, I went straight to the nearest Food Court [FC3] to eat...

After eating, I had a little stomach-ache, so I went to the toilet to relieve myself...
In the meantime, I continued to read the book. After some time, I started to feel lethargic, and [incredibly... ] I actually took a nap in the toilet... [Very disturbing act...]

When I woke up, it was around 2.30pm...I quickly cleaned up after myself and went back to the library...

Pause again: Why didn't I go outside my next lesson room to wait or something? It was a practical right?

Well, I once again wrongly assumed that I would be able to make it there in time, and thought that I should just take a break in the library first....

Evidently.... I shouldn't have done so... Seriously... I shouldn't....

Why? Well, I had ended up finding MORE books for myself to read, and just went on to drag the time...
Even more strange, was the fact that I had even photocopied 'Sudoku puzzles' from the newspaper to do. I had just thought of it as a way to pass the time...

Little did I know of what to expect....

At 12pm, my parents had just return from KL... Then my mother came straight up to my room.
She told me that she had heard from my form teacher about my truancy for the past 2 days and wanted to know what had happened and why i did not go for my lessons...

I told her everything thing that had happened...

And so, I have concluded this post with a message:

A note to self: Never assume things, Never play truant, and Never be self-centered and selfish...